Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Butterfly Effect... if you got no clue, i will let you know the importance of it in an easy way. Wikipedia says this "The butterfly effect is a phrase that encapsulates the more technical notion of sensitive dependence on initial conditions in chaos theory. Small variations of the initial condition of a nonlinear dynamical system may produce large variations in the long term behavior of the system". In layman terms, i was happy till this afternoon. I had many reasons for that. Firstly, i came from my hometown a few hours before after attending Mayuri's Sreemantam at Nellore. Secondly, had a good conversation with my mom relating to some personal issues. Thirdly, Gayathri is confident about the interview that she gave for Religare. Then all of a Sudden, from nowhere, an utterly insignificant[to me] organizational change, came all through the way to my door steps to affect me. Decisions were finalized at the higher level and my change accordingly. This is making me sad, makes me feel like a blown out balloon, making me feel like a king who lost his throne, feel like a kid feared of losing warmth of his parents. I blame it all on my Team. They were too good, extremely helpful, cares each other, supports each other, works together, celebrates all together. Nothing can be comparable to my team. I am thankful to Chasa for all the guidance and never ending enthusiasm, bchandra - one of the very few genius guys i know, master of logic, alokk- the brilliant, hardworking guy a.k.a the solution man, pobhatt- hats-off to her focus on the job, given a job to her, think that its done, cmakwana-hamara chota master of logic, sdeka- dont want to say much as we both join the elite group of affected people[Butterfly Effect]... imagining myself away from these wonderful people, seriously hurting me. Its not that i cant live without them, its like i dont want to live in that way. Only one thing i can say to myself and i told to my manager is that... "You know my mind and i believe that you had given enough thought before coming up to this decision, i dont want to complicate things by adding emotions to it.." sounds like a typical Karan-Johar film, ofcourse dude, reality seems to be that only. As there is nothing much that i can change or influence here, i will just be thankful to the team for all the happiest moments that i shared with them which i will carry close to my heart...
Status:: Listening to "wind of change" song... soothing a bit....

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