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After 6 Months of my intended extended pause, today i am planning to jot down the happenings around. Firstly, it was my best friends arrival to bangalore to attend madhavans wedding, then going to Nellore along with them and then getting back to Bangalore for spending some time with akbar, who is still fighting for a new job by the time i am writing this. I think he should, by now , understand that God gave a permanant license for him in PUNE in other words its time for him to stay close to KISHORE and start settling in pune for the time being. Our boss, Bhavani started to see dollars for all the hardwork and effort he put on for the last 24 years. Myself, still surviving, still gambling with life and within life everyday. Reading books as if i am finding solace and comfort doing so. Saving money looks like a Herculian task for now. Not able to understand why i like "only" costly things on earth.
still not able to resist myself from eating those mirchi bajji's. Planned for saving 400 bucks from not going to a movie planned by sai.. and went to watch a live match, india VS Pakistan, 2nd day of the 3 test match of indian oil cup, at bangalore, accounting to a cost of roughly 600 bucks. Unable to figureout why weekends end so quickly, unable to figure out how to get most out of weekends. Unable to understand from where my wife, Gayathri, gets that extra strength to take care of me apart from taking care of herself, cooking food for myself and sai, doing household work, studying and not to mention, travelling in the BMTC buses everyday.
Not able to judge whichone is worse when unexplained: life or death. Days are passing by un-noticebly, making me believe that i am as ever young as i used to be in my teens. still not able to control my anger on small small day2day things. still not able to connect the dots either by looking backwards or by looking ahead. On the whole, i am still stuck in the rabbit hole. Lets see whats gonna happen. By the way, where is silpa.... sulekha's bday is nearby..dec 13th.. need to wish her.... tejovathy is getting married in feb, need to attend that.. just like i did for Raghunath's marriage..(my school friend).... i know i am talking all bullshit today... let me stop this here and resolve some ddts....

STYLE Touching its Limits

The following video shows how these techie companies taking birth more than the human race day by day, try to show their presence felt.



Wish you a job at one such company...!

This is esp.. for my dear friend.. Akbar alias abu..
Enjoy ...!

Video song#2

This song is from the movie "Mungaru Male", once again a kannada movie which became a super, duper success in the industry. This song is sung by... guess... guess...



(sonu nigam)... enjoy this beautiful song... by the way to enjoy songs, you dont need to understand lyrics... music will take care of everything...

Lyrics for you...

Mungaru Maleye..
Yenu ninna Hanigala Leele

Ninna Mugila Saale, Dhareya Korala Premada Maale
Suriva Olume Aajadi Malege, Preeti Moodide

Yaava Chippinalli, Yaava Haniyu Muttaguvudo
Olavu Yelli Kudiyoduvudo, Tiliyadagide

Mungaru Maleye..
Yenu Ninna Hanigala Leele

Bhuvi Kenne Tumba, Mugilu Surida Muttina Gurutu
Nanna Yedeya Tumba, Avalu Banda Heggeya Gurutu
Hegge Gegge Aa Savi Saddu, Premanadavoo

Yede Mugilinalli, Rangu challi Nintalu Avalu
Baredu Hesaru Kamanabillu, Yenu Modeyoo

Mungaru Maleye..
Yenu Ninna Hanigala Leele

Yava Hanigalinda, Yava Nelavu Hasiraguvudo
Yaara Sparshadindaa, Yara Manavu Hasivaguvudo..
Yara Usirali Yara Hesaro Yaru Baredaro
Yava Preeti Huvu, Yara Hrudayadalli Ararluvudo
Yaara Prema Poojege Mudipo, Yaru Balloro

Mungaru Maleye..
Yenu ninna Hanigala Leele

Olava Chandamama Naguta Banda Manadangalake
Preeti Belakinalli, Hrudaya Horatide Meravanige
Avala Prema Doorinakadege, Preeti Payanavoo
Pranaya Doorinalli, Kaledu Hogo Sukava Indu
Dhanyanaade Padedukondu Hosa Janmavoo

Mungaru Maleye..
Yenu ninna Hanigala Leele

THODA VIDEOS BHI HO-JAYE

From now on.. i am planning to add video songs of my choice to my blog... so the first song is "Nee Amruta dhare"...

SECURITY @ FORUM, BANGALORE.. SUCKS...!

I would like to share an incident that happened yesterday night at 9:30PM at Forum, Koramangala.

As usual there is a huge crowd in and around forum by that time. Suddenly, a guy rushes into the forum security desk and begs him to call police immediately and cries for help from the crowd. He says someguys are chasing him. The guys head is severely injured...blood oozing out from his head and blood is everywhere on the ground near the security desk at forum within seconds of his arrival.

In the next moment, 5 auto-drivers run into the mall and tries to drag this guy outside where many other autodrivers are waiting. This injured guy runs into the crowd, once again begs everyone, to save him from them.

The worst part... is... there is not a single security guard who can save this poor guy. The drama begins... all security guys calls on their walkie talkie.... but noone tries to come and help this guy who is forced to come outside by the auto walas..

i shouted on one of the guard to call police at the security desk. He said.. i cant make any calls from the phone. i tried my phone to dail 100... the call fails...

security at forum... what the hell... they are all little less than the medium sized person... they dont know what to do when something unexpected happens... but one thing they can do is.. "make checkings on both sides of the entires... the security check they do at the entrance looks to me like a showoff to the world as if they are trying to save 1000's of vistiors from terrorists everyday..."

After looking at the professionals watching the show... the veryfew among the many kindhearted souls around the situation supported the guy... and fighted against the auto-walas to leave him for now and wait until the police comes....

At the end... as in every bollywood movie,,, police comes and the cameras attached to the spectators eyes rolls behind them...

i dont know what had happened between the auto-wala and this guy... i dont know who is right... but i think its humanity to save a person who requests for help when someone/group is attacking on the other..no matter who is right... until the point where law takes the situation into its hands....

PRINCETON is calling...! If you think that i am gone nuts... sorry pal... you gotta believe me at times... Sometime in the afternoon, my guide sent me an email... and it read " finally the paper got accepted".. i am happy to hear those words from my guide... afterall its today that my Masters thesis got its reward, though i passed out from IIT long before ... but at the same time, if you give a closer look into the wordings.. the word "finally" caught my eye... its true that my guide tried a lot submitting my thesis for acceptance to a number of journals.. some accepted but we rejected and some which we wanted to accept, rejected us... and atlast the one which we wanted to accept, accepted us.. The workshop seems to be a good one.. LANMAN2007.

This is going to be held at Princeton from June 10th to 13th at New Jersey, U.S.A.
Some words about Princeton.. "Princeton is a state of mind and a place where the mind is valued more than the body." and "It's like another world of it's own where geniuses discuss politics, history, economics, math, and literature. It's hardly believable that some of them probably don't own television sets because they think it's waste of time and a distraction but they probably have computers instead."

I am happy that my paper got accepted and my guide is happy that , the time he spent didnt go waste... thought of travelling all the way to princeton but seems like the cost factor is making its importance felt in my life now. One interesting thing about this workshop is that.. the very company that i am currently working with "Cisco" is sponsoring the Event. I made my attempts by talking to my manager regarding the same. After his small chat with the Director, he said that its not possible for Cisco to sponser my travel.. anyways... whatever happened ... happened for a reason.. and whatever is happening .. happening for a reason only... atleast this answer makes me sleep tonight...
Long live LANMAN2007 and Long live Princeton......!

Oh God.! Save Those Fathers and Brothers .... i had this bad dream last night.... it was my wife, suddenly became my sister in the dream and don't know the details of my sister's husband. Suddenly, he called me up on phone and said that my sister is not feeling well. I was worried a lot about her but told him not to worry and everything will be okay in no time. After few minutes of this conversation, I started to feel like a leftover and felt all the loneliness in the world. I was not able to tolerate the fact that all the care related to my sister is now been taken over by some alien person[Here, my sisters husband]. The pain which i experienced in the dream is unexplainable, but i tell you, it was severe, it was intense, it was deep down within my consciousness, it squeezed my heart, it was such a pain that i never experienced and i ever dont want to.

This might reflect some of the thoughts that i expressed in one of my blogposts... humanitarian actions..... but tell you this is worth giving a thought...
I never had a sister, i only had friends who were girls. Sometimes i used to think that i missed something in my life when i saw my friends who have brothers or sisters. But, after this mind-blowing dream, i feel elated that i am blessed to be the only 'one' child in the family. But to my surprise, i got this another thought when i woke up...

wont the situation be same if i have a baby girl in the near future....

God save those fathers who have daughters and brothers who have sisters from all this pain.

Remembering the Times.....


Hi all,

Yet another year passed by and i can't believe that it's been 2.5 years since we left the college. Life is moving and its moving faster than my childhood days. Moreover, to my surprise, i am told that its been more than 4months since i got married. Gosh..! i cant believe all this had happened. So i thought of jotting down some of the interesting things and remarkable things that happened since may 2004.

2004

1. May 4th... completed all the exams of my Graduation.

2. May 5th... packed my bags for IIT entrance in Bombay.

3. May 11th.. got to know that i got selected.

4. May went first time to Shridi.

5. June got my first mobile phone and first ever International call from Silpa. Samsung SGH-X430

6. July left to a city for the first time to stay for more than a week.

7. Oct bhavani, Kishore comes to IIT from pune to celebrate my birthday

8. Nov finished the semester exams and packed bags back to nellore.

9. Dec my first visit to pune.

10. Dec Here comes Akbar to see a first live show along with me as part of Mood-I festival at IIT.

2005

1. Jan-Till May2006 Starts frequent visits to Pune.

2. March First Workshop ever i am involved in making it success. Convergence05 at KReSIT.

3. April First Trekking in my life

3. Oct First ever bowling at Hiranandani along with Ritesh and Anupam

4. Oct Once again Bday celebrations with ABK

5. Nov Went all the way to nellore to eat "Mirapakaya bajji"

6. Dec21 Campus placements starts

2006

1. Jan 17 Got selected to Cisco systems at night 12:45. My first job.

2. Feb Came to Nellore along with Anupam and Kamal Varma for a jolly trip.

3. Mar 15 First time boarded second class A/C to Bangalore for a party given by cisco.

4. Mar First ever flight (Air Deccan), thanks to konark for buying a ticket, back to bombay

5. April Went to lonavala from pune along with Sateesh velaga and BK.

6. April Started to think deeply about the girl in my life .

7. July Watched EuroCup foot ball at Auditoriam along with rest of IITians during nights.

8. July 10 Finished my Mtech-Defense and relieved from all the pain causers of my life so far.

9. July 14 Finally decided to get married after 2 years to Gayathri.

10. July 15 Packed my bags to Nellore after saying good-bye to IIT Bombay and esp Hostel12 and Friends.

11. July 17 Informed to her parents regarding the marriage and got acceptance from all of them

12. July 24 moved to bangalore for my first job at Cisco systems and shared a room along with my best friend Sai.

13. August Gifted a High-end Mobile phone(Samsung) to Gayathri.

14 August 7 decided to get married before August 17, 06

15 August 10 My first convocation

16. August 13 Attended my best friends Reception[Silpa & Satya] at Hyderabad along with Akbar who took his first flight ever in his life.

17. August 17 Finished Da-vinci Code, minutes before marriage

18. August 17 finally got married

19. Sept Got my first bike.. Bajaj Platina

20. November A big fight with the house owner and complained the same at PoliceStation for the first time.

21. December Made my first investment on mutual funds.

If i look back, i feel like everything happened so fast, so quick and without my notice. All those conversations which i had with Akbar during nights under a tree walking on the long streching roads of IIT bombay, all those conversations which i had with ABK whenever they come to bombay or we go to pune, all those phone calls from USA.. from the dearest Silpa.... all those movies i watched and books i read, whenever i became nervous... all those are gone atleast for the moment. I still cant forget the days when akbar used to buy me books to read and kishore and bhavani used to buy me clothes to wear for no occasion... silpa.. all together your marriage gift is the most precious and memorable gift in my entire life so far.

Not to mention, Saikrishna is always with me. His calls from korea and photos he shared with me, and the room we shared together here in bangalore... i cherish them all.. at the time of marriage the amount of concern he showed on me...cannot forget.... his cooking style, his jokes, his singing and playing the drums habit... i enjoyed each and every bit of it.

My managers and colleagues in office are too good.. they are always ready to give a helping hand so-far.. and i hope they will for the rest of my stay at this company...

Thanks to all of you for your companionship all through these years and wish you all good luck and success in the years ahead.

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