Read to get confused
After 6 Months of my intended extended pause, today i am planning to jot down the happenings around. Firstly, it was my best friends arrival to bangalore to attend madhavans wedding, then going to Nellore along with them and then getting back to Bangalore for spending some time with akbar, who is still fighting for a new job by the time i am writing this. I think he should, by now , understand that God gave a permanant license for him in PUNE in other words its time for him to stay close to KISHORE and start settling in pune for the time being. Our boss, Bhavani started to see dollars for all the hardwork and effort he put on for the last 24 years. Myself, still surviving, still gambling with life and within life everyday. Reading books as if i am finding solace and comfort doing so. Saving money looks like a Herculian task for now. Not able to understand why i like "only" costly things on earth.
still not able to resist myself from eating those mirchi bajji's. Planned for saving 400 bucks from not going to a movie planned by sai.. and went to watch a live match, india VS Pakistan, 2nd day of the 3 test match of indian oil cup, at bangalore, accounting to a cost of roughly 600 bucks. Unable to figureout why weekends end so quickly, unable to figure out how to get most out of weekends. Unable to understand from where my wife, Gayathri, gets that extra strength to take care of me apart from taking care of herself, cooking food for myself and sai, doing household work, studying and not to mention, travelling in the BMTC buses everyday.
Not able to judge whichone is worse when unexplained: life or death. Days are passing by un-noticebly, making me believe that i am as ever young as i used to be in my teens. still not able to control my anger on small small day2day things. still not able to connect the dots either by looking backwards or by looking ahead. On the whole, i am still stuck in the rabbit hole. Lets see whats gonna happen. By the way, where is silpa.... sulekha's bday is nearby..dec 13th.. need to wish her.... tejovathy is getting married in feb, need to attend that.. just like i did for Raghunath's marriage..(my school friend).... i know i am talking all bullshit today... let me stop this here and resolve some ddts....
