Human Nature....

It always hurts deep down... that being a human, i fail to understand its very nature most of times... the behaviour which i sometimes predict resonably well and fail to guess even close in rest of the times. Recently, i am witnessing or thinking that i am witnessing, a new behaviour, which i started to believe that most adults experience at their mid-40's and rest of us experience it in a different flavour all through our lives. Though the feeling seems so trivial for many reasons but its consequences are not that trivial when compared to what we rest(leaving adults) of us experience in our day to day lives... anyways the point which i am beating around the bush so far is.. the change in behaviour of an adult when his/her child gets older enough and then starts their so-called Own Living. The reason i feel, behind the male for a change in his behaviour might be the fear to loose The Power of Ownership and for the female counterpart may be its the New Person entering into the Family tree. The feeling to me looks so natural since losing a familer thing or fear of losing something which one enjoys for a decent amount of time is unbearable. Infact, its the same feeling that most of us experience whenever we leave any of our best friends, Lover and everytime when we use the word Good bye. But this very feeling when experienced in adulthood in a different flavour can result in some sort of disaster in entire family.. starting with the "subject".. the counterpart including the adults. After spending a couple of nights thinking about this feeling, i came up with a possible state of mind to ensure that such a feeling does not enter into oneself is " only when you experience it for such an extent that giving it away or living without it, doesnt make you feel that you are missing something in your life any longer". The next moment, to my surprise, a counter example that popped into my mind left me puzzled. I started to look back into my own life searching for instances that giving away something that relates to me either directly or indirectly and leaving me unfelt... As the answer became a STRICTLY NO SUCH INSTANCE ... i was a bit disappointed.. even after living for 24 years on this earth.. i was not able to find a single instance which can leave me as i am even after losing it. Why am i so POSSESSIVE and why i cant say the word TAKE THIS without expecting anything in return. I will become a self contented MAN if at all i could feel the feeling of not being affected by any such "HUMANITARIAN REFLEX FEELINGS" atleast for once in my entire life time.